I have said this to myself many times before. Two weeks ago I finally sucked it up and went back to Weight Watchers to try and get myself going. Trying to count calories on my own has not been successful. I am the same weight as of my last weigh in but then as soon as I get motivated and hit my very first 25 minutes on the elliptical machine ever I get sick. I have a condition that causes extreme pain during certain times of each month. It is Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome or PCOS. I usually can maintain with lots of pain medicine and hot baths and an alcoholic drink or two to help me sleep but this time it came with a vengeance. Food cravings OUT OF THIS WORLD. It caused me to miss the casting call for the Biggest Loser that I wanted to attend. I missed work one day too. So for two weeks I have been on an alcohol, food binge and since I was unable to get out of bed I havent exercised. This is the longest period in 3 years I havent. So yesterday for the 4th I went with friends to swim and watch fireworks. The first movement I have really had. So now feeling heavy and tired I have to get back to it. Seeing myself on TV on Ali Vincent's show was motivation but also made me feel guilty that I have been unable to accomplish the 40 pound goal. I have some time left so I hope to get as much weight off as I can prior to her arrival back in Kansas City for the Live Well Expo 2012. I posted a link to the TV appearance that was taped in April so if you havent yet, take a look at it. Here is the link again. Ask Ali in Los Angeles, Kansas City and Spokane
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| Me being taped for the Ask Ali segment of Live Big! With Ali Vincent |
I think I have also been discouraged because I was working out SO HARD and SO OFTEN and nothing was happening even when I was watching my food intake that when I got sick I was more susceptible to the cravings for pizza, beer, tequila, fast food garbage, etc. I couldnt cook or get out to the store in the amount of pain I was in so I was set up for failure. I have learned that in the future it has to be planned for. I need to have "healthy" junk food substitutions for these times and have it ready at home.
I have also been less and less interested in jazzercise. I am usually so into the promotions, etc. But I havent been motivated to go. My favorite instructor moved to another center that is inconvenient to get to , they are on a push for these young instructors that I just cant relate to. But when I do force myself in that door I have a good time. It just seems as though I have been more interested in swimming in my pool at the apartment and working out in my workplace gym and going to Flirty Girl Fitness class than anything else really. But I know less exercise and more food intake is only going to send me one place. So this week my goal is to get to jazzercise 2x, Flirty Girl Fitness on Wed., PiYo on Wed, and swim 2x and workout in the gym at my work 2x plus the race. I have to get myself back on the sweat high that I was on before and pick myself up out of this depression. Frankly Blog Peeps it has been a very LONG time since I was this down.
I have also had some outside emotional upsets. My good friend at work moved to another shift so I felt left behind and sad. I love having someone to talk to all the time who knows me and now I dont. So that has been an adjustment. There are some milestones that are also emotionally triggering. My daughter turned 24 on July 1st. I havent spoken to her in almost 2 years. Her son; my grandson ( I still cant even say it without choking on the word) I have never seen will be a year old on July 8th and my mother turns 60 on July 12th which makes me feel old. My family issues are really a mess. But that is a blog for another time and another day.
On a very positive note I finally healed from my injury I sustained at the Hospital Hill Race. Now its time to race again. I am participating in the Major League Baseball All-Star Game 5k Race this Sunday, July 8th. I am very excited and I will get a new medal to add to my small little collection. Our horribly hot weather will cool down to low 90's and for race time should be less than that. This week also we get to wear MLB jerseys for a fundraiser at work so I am excited to be sexy in my Royals jersey that I am going to buy today. I have a Cleveland Indians' one that I could wear when I was 300+ lbs but Its big but I may have to wear it one day this week during the time so I have enough time to wash the new one. I get to wear it for 4 days.
My inspiration Jennifer Rumple has a new blog she has started and one of the posts shows her riding a beautiful horse on a beach trail ride. That has been something I have longed to do is ride a horse again. So I think I will focus on that and hope to do a beautiful fall trail ride here somewhere in September or October. A good focus for me. Here is a link to her blog so check it out! Aspire to INSPIRE!
Well I am closing this blog for this week. Hopefully I will have an outstanding week to report for my next blog and pics from the All Star 5k and more. Take Care and remember we all get set back occasionally. I did not lose over 100 lbs overnight and without plateaus and setbacks. If it takes me 5 years to do this I will have still accomplished and the time will pass anyway. *peaceout!*
